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I just bought a pint of vanilla ice cream due to a sudden craving. I would normally try to ignore it because i’m emotional eating but tonight:

I had 2 of my dads friends ask me if I’ve lost weight today and that i looked really great. I mean it was wonderful seeing the scale at 128 since when i started this i was 133 but its even better that people are noticing it. I feel wonderful.

Dickbags I think I sprained my foot while doing high knees for insanity, I landed wrong and fell and now it hurts a lot :C  I think I’ll just do floor ab exercises for today now so I don’t hurt my foot any more

I need to kick my ass into gear. I think that I became way too happy about going down to 128lbs and I’ve been half-assing my workouts and eating not as well as I was before so now I really need to go for a long run, eat a banana and some peaches and start it up again.

Okay so the other day i ended up eating a Johnny Fat Boy burger (a burger with a large onion ring and bacon) and Chili Cheese Fries and I regret nothing at all. I’ve been eating pretty healthily lately and you know what pigging out once won’t absolutely destroy me, so its okay I’m not sweating it. Just gotta continue the workouts and eat healthy and all will be chill. 

You guys, you guys, YOU GUYS, I’M BACK DOWN UNDER 130! I’M AT 128 WHAT THE HELL?! WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?! I’m sorry i’m just so over joyed! I’ve only been trying to work out and get fit and healthy since like December (technically i tried starting September but i gave up quickly) and even though I haven’t exercised every single day and hell even missed an entire week when i went to Cuba and missed days because of my period andsometimeslaziness I was still able to get down! Now i’m only 8lbs away from my UGW and holy hell i’m so freaking happy yes yes yes

Alright so i really need to find some healthier snacks, my whole life i’ve been like addicted to potato chips and i need to find some other alternatives, lately i’ve been eating corn nuts but i don’t think they’re super great for me? 

If you know any semi salty snacks that would be preferred for my tastes but sweet works too, i just need to find better snack food in general

Sorry guys i was just super busy for the last couple weeks and i haven’t really been working out as i should be so i thought it would be inappropriate for me to post here.

Odd/Good news though: Before i left to go visit family in Cuba the very top of my thighs still touched (not very much though) and well 5 days later i come back look in the mirror and holy hell thigh gap? How did this happen if i didn’t work out for 5 days?

Well i rationalized this as 1: In Cuba i did a lot of walking (the main mode of transportation in Caibarien) and 2: i had little to basically no junk food at all for 5 days. Like here i usually have potato chips of some kind always, its like my addiction, but while there i only had a couple of Bon Bon’s.

So yeah i think im going to try to go on without junk food for sometime and just eat nice fruits.

I love how far your body can actually go if you just let it. Whenever i run i get to this point where my mind says to me “stop right there, no seriously stop, this isn’t fun anymore, you’re tired just take a break, ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME? I SAID STOP IT, YOU’RE TOO TIRED, YOU CAN’T GO ANY LONGER, OMG WHAT ARE YOU DOING, I’M DYING, I’M FUCKING DYING HERE, I CAN’T, I CAN’T” And i ignore all of that and keep going regardless and i can go so much farther than i even thought i could. I’m stronger than i think and i love that. And when I’m done and have sat my ass down and taken a break i feel so happy and proud of myself for going farther and harder than i thought possible.